Day 1

This is day one of my experiment.

I want to wean myself off a certain man. That is, not to fall out of love with him. Not to distance myself necessarily. I'm just trying to not be obsessive. Yes, can you imagine?... It's positively my best trait, but I must stifle it, in order to make this thing work. By keeping him at arm's length, I intend to make us closer, to give him a chance to miss me, to put all this -- US -- back into perspective. I imagine he's probably surfing on his Celtic forums and hasnt even noticed that I'm not there. Bah! One day he'll learn! :D

So what are my plans to distract myself from him? Well, it's 6:57pm, and I got home from work about an hour and a half ago, and I still haven't gone on MSN! \o/ Pretty proud of myself, tbh. Small steps, Molee, small steps. I plan on reading lots. Yoga-ing lots. Drawing lots. Wanking lots, shirley. :D

I've also been emailing people loads. I used to be hyper-social... I'm just putting myself back into that space again, where I could talk to anyone and I *would* talk to everyone. It's a good feeling to know that these people haven't forgotten you, even if you'd temporarily misplaced your friendship under the sofa cushions with all the change that fell outta yer pocket. Anyway, I spoke to Amy for an hour last night and bored her to death with the details of my love life and friend life, if it can be called that. :D She's so wonderful... I miss her muchly, but she's having a wonderful life down in NY, so I'm super happy for her.

Alas, I'm off to stretch my hamstrings and contort my body into unnatural positions. Catch you on the flip side!

wuv,
me